hey! Long time no see, for anyone. I miss DA and all my old friends soo much you dont know the half of it..

*a little song*
I feel so hopless, powerless,
cant tell him anything without him acting like hes dumb.
I feel so couragless, useless,
can't say one word because im scared i'll chase him away so i only hum.
I hum this little song for one but all can hear, i dont care no more.
It's him and me forever (he says)
but soon it might just be me.
I can deal with him and his acting whenever,
but I just can't take it when i need him the most.
This one guy seems to be tearing my head to shreads,
Emplanted in my brain like my favorit song.
So agrivaing I come to the point i want to rip my hair out,
The love we have hurts the most, no one but him can bring such pain.
I need breathing space, and someone to talk to seriosly,
Not someone who's just there to make me laugh, or kiss on.
But someone who can help me when i need it most, and comfert when im low.
Someone who I can count on at all times,
to fight my battles with me, not for me.
Somehow forget the terible things i have done,
and only worry about the presant.
Somewhere he can take me and feel safe,
even if its only in his arms, as long as were together.
I feel like im tumbling, Falling,
Like theres no one there to cetch me when i fall.
I feel like im crying, Balling,
As if im all alone with no one there beside me.


*end, i guess* its only alittle and im getting better and better at guitar!

I have another one but its a poem i want you to see now.

*never leave me*

Never leave me,
I wont be able to live another day.
Not without thee,
dont go because i want you to stay.
I dont konw how to tell you how much i love you,
Just that i want to be with you forever,
I love everything you do.
I would never think of cheating on you ever!
This thing is for you baby,
No on but the person I thik of all through the nigh'
I write this to see what you think maybe,
My love has no limi, its extreamly high.
In this, im only showing you alittle of what my love is.
This isnt even the size of the smallest hat,
yeah, my biggest crush was Dusten but i gave him my heart,its his.
And its a crush, i love you beyond that.
A crush is only someone ment to break your heart,
Thats why its called a crush,
What me and you have is art,
While we play poker i show you my hand and its a straight flush.
I thought He loved me
it just turned out he loved me till he found someone older,
He cheated on me after about a year, and that wont let me be.
Were friends now, but he still walks with his arm on my shoulder.
A little part of me still loves him,
but you over powered that love and made yours,
just to let you know, i plan on staying with you and taht thoughts not dim,
I only htink of you over all these hours!
So many secrets i have kept from you the past few weeks,
i'll start on by one,
From least affective to most in little tiny shreaks,
im here is one, dont worry im almost done.
No matter what you do i'll always care,
honey, over here, i want you to come.
i dont know what to say or do i dare?
Now really, heh-heh, how far can you cum?
It's weird really, just everything.
Whenever someone ever tells me to come i think,
Not of just anything.
I think of you, and in my eyes you'll never shrink.

*End*

(dont worry about the subject of this journal, its only to get ppls attention guess!)

Well ill talk to you all later!

!!

Bye bye